This past week I have been walking a lot- physically and spiritually. Every meal we have to walk a mile to this big church where we eat together and have our sessions. We walk everywhere around here- to meals, around town, and to Sunday morning church in the township. I think I could walk to wal-mart from my house now and it would be a breeze.

            This week we have had sessions on discipleship. A few guys flew in from Kansas City to pour into us.  It has been so good. I've learned so much. I honesty have never experienced a formal discipleship and I've never been taught about it. So it was very good. One of the men that came really encouraged me. He flew all the way here from Kansas City on his own money and support raising. His name is Greg. The love, joy, and compassion of the Lord just radiated from him. He really went out of his way to get to know us and encourage us. It really made a difference that he cared enough and took the time to sit down beside us; look us in the eye and really care about what the Lord was doing in our lives even though he knew he was only here for a week. I really believe that is what God is asking us to do in this command of loving others.

            In the midst of walking a lot physically the Lord has continued to refine me. Its been a more painful process this week. I can't express enough how bittersweet it is. It so sweet in the end- I know the Lord will bring me to a place of being totally ruined. It sounds so good in my head to think that it could happen at the snap of a finger. So on Monday I was given a chance to turn away from what the Lord has been showing me what needs to be burned away and truly walk in the light. We had to pray at the end of session Monday about those things in our life the Lord was dealing with us about. So we had to walk from the church to the place we were staying and back in silence while praying. It was so good. It was cold and rainy that day, so my first thought was oh no I don't want to do this. I had to make up my mind to have a good attitude about it and benefit from it. So even in the midst of walking I even had to walk out what I was praying about. Within 5 minutes of starting the Lord spoke to me and told me to give up my jacket to the girl walking beside me. It was really my breakthrough in the situation. It sounds petty, but its been really hard for me living in community and sharing. So I've just been praying for a real love for my team. Because in order to have a heart for the nations and Swaziland it starts with loving those the Lord has already put before me. I love how the Lord refines us and then allows us to walk it out.